not sure what is up with me, but I am much more emotional today. I think it has to do with all the testing and still my worry over the tumor marker going up. I have cried non-stop. Sometimes it’s a sad cry….sometimes it’s a just because cry.


What it boils down too is everyday brings new feeelings and emotions and today I had all of them. I am very sore from my shot (makes all your joints and bones hurt) and that’t not helping. I’m also in St. Louis and miss John.


Hopefully tomorrow is a new day with a new perspective. Today I had a pity party and a why me??? moment. I hope tomorrow is different. I’ve said before that once you are diagnosed with cancer your whole world stops. Today, that’s how I felt.


But, by the gift of God I will wake up tomorrow and try to do/be better. I promise.






not sure what is up with me, but I am much more emotional today. I think it has to do with all the testing and still my worry over the tumor marker going up. I have cried non-stop. Sometimes it’s a sad cry….sometimes it’s a just because cry.

What it boils down too is everyday brings new feeelings and emotions and today I had all of them. I am very sore from my shot (makes all your joints and bones hurt) and that’t not helping. I’m also in St. Louis and miss John.

Hopefully tomorrow is a new day with a new perspective. Today I had a pity party and a why me??? moment. I hope tomorrow is different. I’ve said before that once you are diagnosed with cancer your whole world stops. Today, that’s how I felt.

But, by the gift of God I will wake up tomorrow and try to do/be better. I promise.